Yesterday I was supposed to do a show in Northport, but there were reports of such severe weather that the lady who had sub-contracted me (a Hula sister of mine who has her own halau out west,) called me and said that she and one of her dancers would go instead. The storm didn't come till after I would have been home and that bummed me out. But today I went out to Northport to dance with a few ladies from her halau anyway, just to trade some Hulas. I learned three dances and taught one. The one I taught was ferociously difficult. My favorite one that I learned is a Hula Pele, and this one is done with lit torches! How fantastic! And it is chanted by one of my favorite, most beloved and incredible aunties ever, in the entire world.
We danced for about an hour straight, nonstop. It was really cool.
Now I've had a great dinner and am all showered for the evening. I might--
might--be performing this weekend. It's all up in the air. I guess I have to be ready for anything.
I told an old Hula sister of mine, with whom I danced today, about what happened with my ex-job. She was amazed, horrified, outraged and all the other stuff you're supposed to typically be, and then as I was leaving she said, "I think this is such a blessing for you. You don't want to be in a job like that. you're better than that. So dance the summer away and search yourself for what you're really meant to do."
It totally flooded me with hope. I think that is exactly what I need.
In bird news, I've got my starling, Fazzi, and a beaten up little grackle named Reyes, and that's all I have so far this year. Reyes was a cat toy, so both his wings are fractured and his little head is all bruised and chewed on. He's also got something wrong with his trachea or his lungs (but I think it's his trachea.) I'm not sure what it is. I thought pneumonia or gapeworm, but he's on ABs and I wormed him, and nothing has worked. Hmm.
My friend Casse has been staying with me on and off the last few days and until she finds an apartment, but the problem is that I never know if she's going to be here or not. So I have to be ready at any moment to lock up the dogs, leave the computer, etc. It's hard for me to share my time and my space; I'm protective of it. But she's getting back on her feet so that's a great thing.
I don't know if I mentioned this or not, but I'm into two awesome things right now. I'm playing the Wii game Okami, which is beautiful (though frustrating; my WiiMote is crap and it's hard to work the Celestial Brush,) and I'm reading Sei Shonagon's
The Pillow Book. For anyone who doesn' t know, that is the diary of a woman serving at court in Heian Japan a thousand years ago, almost exactly. What is amazing is that when you read her, a thousand years fall away, and she is just an extraordinary woman keeping a blog. She writes of her flirtations, flowers, the beautiful things she sees, her friends, gossip, the places she travels. She tells stories and writes poems, reviews performances she's watched, she waxes exultant over flowers, the moon, ponds, how much she loves the weather. She makes lists of things she loves and hates and misses. She complains, she bitches, she talks about stuff that pisses her off. She talks about people who are idiots and she makes fun of them. She talks about people she respects and how she admires them. She often remarks of herself that she is not attractive, but gets by on her wit and astonishingly quick and poetic mind. What is even more amazing to me, personally, than a thousand years falling away in a few pages, is how much I relate to her. It's uncanny.
She was serving a young empress called Teishi, who was 14 at the time Sei came to the court. Teishi is pretty and gentle and wise and young, where Sei is in her 30's, acerbic, wise and slightly bitter. Despite their different backgrounds and their age difference, she and Teishi and Sei become great friends. Teishi reminds me of my training sister and Sehing (meaning,
she teaches
me,) Raquel, who is fifteen.
Anyway, I'm just floored by Sei Shonagon everytime I open the book.
Oh, and I've been cooking a lot, too, trying different food combinations that I never thought of before. It's been pretty awesome. Actually, and tonight I have a bucket of frozen acai pulp. I don't know how good or nasty it's going to taste on its own, but I might thaw it out a bit and throw some chocolate chips in there. Mmmmm. ^_^
It's June. HURRAY.
