A mixed bag of bones and nerves
Dec. 15th, 2007 04:00 pmSo Monday was very hard, but honestly it was not as hard as the weekend that came before. I don't want to write too many of the details, except to say that it was really time for Trisky to go. The decision wasn't a easy one by any means. Well I mean, the decision was, but deciding on when it would be, how much I was willing to try, that was the hard part. On one hand I had a few vets telling me that it was possible to stretch it out over a few weeks. On the other hand, me thinking, "But why? This is terrible." So on Monday night Dr. Jenn and my good friend Donna came over after work, way out of their way. And then they took Trisky back with them for private cremation, which means I get her ashes back in an urn. It's been a few days and I still kind of can't believe I'm writing that.
Then there was the thing with my x ray, from when I went to the ER on Sunday. I get a call from the ER Monday about the x ray, but you know, I'm not picking up the damn phone so I'm like, whatever. Tuesday, nothing. Then on Wednesday I go out with my cousin Chrissie and we get our hair done (mine in red streaks all over the place, which was awesome for the first few hours until I washed it and now they are brown streaks,) and when I get home I have another call from the ER.
Well the lady I spoke to was really nice, but she was like, "Well, there is something on your x ray that we're sure is not a bone lesion, it's probably an artifact, but we have to follow it up to make sure." An artifact is like the medical way of saying "a mistake in the x ray." But just hearing 'bone lesion" over the phone, which is what I heard about Trisky on Friday, was like, YOU HAVE GOT TO BE EFFING KIDDING ME. So I told my parents because I had the appointment with the orthopedist on tuesday coming up (that's this coming tuesday,) and my Da totally freaked out. So that kind of sucked, and that's been hanging over my head for a while.
Thursday I went xmas shopping, and then on Friday I decided that I was bored and even though the doctors had told me to not be putting any weight on my leg, I couldn't sit around any more and so I went back to work. That was yesterday.
Working on Friday is so different from what it used to be. It used to be me and Casse, then for a while it was me, Casse and Jennel or me, Casse and Tanya. That was a terrific team. We always worked closely together and we had such a fantastic time. The day flew by. Then Jennel left on leave and now Casse is gone, and it's not the same. I get frustrated really easily on Fridays and I rely on my friends in the lab to, I don't know, keep me amused and keep me on my toes. It's just become a very frustrating day for me because I have to deal with certain things, certain issues that should not be mine to deal with, and I have very little patience for these kinds of things to begin with.
So anyway, yesterday still had the chance to be decent, if it hadn't so happened that Michelle, someone who used to work with us, came down from Maine to have her beloved dog Chant put to sleep. A little background on Chant: she was one of my favorite dogs. Here's the other weird thing. Both she and Trisky were 13. Chant's birthday was the day before mine, and Trisky's birthday was the day before Michelle's. We had always halfway joked that we would probably lose them at around the same time. Chant outlived Trisky by four days. It was such a sad way to break up the day. Michelle looked exactly like I did on Monday: a total wreck. I took her by the arm and said "I have to show you something," then I led her back to the hall where we keep the records of deaths and euthanasias. I pointed out Trisky's highlighted name at the bottom of the page, and we both just busted out crying. It was very hard, the whole deal.
Then there was last night and this morning. Okay, so my crow Lohi'au, right? Otherwise known as Havoc, because no one wants to either spell or pronounce Lohi'au? And because havoc is what he causes, naturally. Well, he figured out how to work all the locks on his cage ages ago, so since aroudn summertime I've resorted to just putting a bungee cord across the doors to keep him in. He's been trying to work them out for months. Last night he simply bit through the cord. Oh, he didn't get out or anything. Instead he chewed through the cord, dragged the entire works into his cage, and went for it. Around 1 AM, right before I was going to bed, I went to give him some food for the morning so he wouldn't scream at sunrise, and I found the chewed up cord. And only one of the metal hooks. I tore the cage apart looking for the other metal hook and couldn't find it. So consequently I spent most of the night trying to get to sleep, and when I managed to sleep, having dreams about finding him dead in the morning.
First thing this morning I took him down to work for an x ray. (And while waiting, met my lovely co-worker Scooter, an employee I'd never had the pleasure of working with, but she's so sweet, and a huge 30STM fan. She was even wearing the t shirt.) Anyway, so we put Havoc in a box and set him on the x ray table. Jane took the x ray.
The first in the break from bad news! No metal hook inside my crow! I have no idea where the damned thing got to--I can imagine and only hope that I threw it away with the newspapers last night while panicking--but it's not inside of my crow and that is a good thing.
( This is my crow's wee little bones! )
Precious.
And then while I was out, unbeknownst to me, my Da went to the ER, got my x rays (I guess he's allowed to do that because he's next of kin?) and took them to his doctor who took him in right away to look at them. Then that doctor told my Dad that there was nothing to worry about concerning my x rays (which I more or less knew, but it's still good to hear,) but that I still needed to follow up with an orthopedist because of the usual structural problems I still have (which I also already knew.) But anyway, that was a good thing!
( Look at that sexy leg bone! )
THEN!! Chrissie got a phone call telling her that Gavin--hers and Timmy's soon-to-be adopted son and my god)dess)son?--has his "interview" on Monday, and shortly after that they should be receiving their travel call. So it could very well be that I will have a new god(dess) son by next week and Chris and Tim will finally, FINALLY after all of these years, have their baby!
Now how awesome is that? Very.
And in the meantime, my little pack of wild dogs has been having some serious coping issues, and also we've been having some serious winter weather. I've got pictures (naturally) to document both of these things.
Weirdly enough, when Trisky got sick, the two boys started fighting more, having these weird little contests. (Of note: Haku randomly freaked out at my Mom and Dad's house the second Dr. Jenn put the injection in Trisky--I heard him from where I was. And since then, Haku can't sleep, and he keeps staring at the place where her bed used to be and crying. I think I've sold him short. He's kind of a retard but he may be deeper than I'd given him credit for.)
Anyway, since Trisky has been gone, I've been seeing more and more of ( this kind of thing from them: )
It starts out as play and then escalates into a real contest that I usually have to break up by taking their toys away. I think they forget that the alpha spot is not up for grabs.
Other than that and their obvious sense of loss, they are their usual dummy selves.
( OH NOEZ TEH FIRE ALARM! )
( And still handsome. )
And aside from that, the ice storms. ( Of course I have pictures! )
We're expecting another huge ice storm tonight, so locals and people traveling into this area, stay warm and be safe.
And that's me, updated.
ETA: The beginning of "Snoopy And The Red Baron" is just like the beginning of MCR's song "Mama." True story.

Then there was the thing with my x ray, from when I went to the ER on Sunday. I get a call from the ER Monday about the x ray, but you know, I'm not picking up the damn phone so I'm like, whatever. Tuesday, nothing. Then on Wednesday I go out with my cousin Chrissie and we get our hair done (mine in red streaks all over the place, which was awesome for the first few hours until I washed it and now they are brown streaks,) and when I get home I have another call from the ER.
Well the lady I spoke to was really nice, but she was like, "Well, there is something on your x ray that we're sure is not a bone lesion, it's probably an artifact, but we have to follow it up to make sure." An artifact is like the medical way of saying "a mistake in the x ray." But just hearing 'bone lesion" over the phone, which is what I heard about Trisky on Friday, was like, YOU HAVE GOT TO BE EFFING KIDDING ME. So I told my parents because I had the appointment with the orthopedist on tuesday coming up (that's this coming tuesday,) and my Da totally freaked out. So that kind of sucked, and that's been hanging over my head for a while.
Thursday I went xmas shopping, and then on Friday I decided that I was bored and even though the doctors had told me to not be putting any weight on my leg, I couldn't sit around any more and so I went back to work. That was yesterday.
Working on Friday is so different from what it used to be. It used to be me and Casse, then for a while it was me, Casse and Jennel or me, Casse and Tanya. That was a terrific team. We always worked closely together and we had such a fantastic time. The day flew by. Then Jennel left on leave and now Casse is gone, and it's not the same. I get frustrated really easily on Fridays and I rely on my friends in the lab to, I don't know, keep me amused and keep me on my toes. It's just become a very frustrating day for me because I have to deal with certain things, certain issues that should not be mine to deal with, and I have very little patience for these kinds of things to begin with.
So anyway, yesterday still had the chance to be decent, if it hadn't so happened that Michelle, someone who used to work with us, came down from Maine to have her beloved dog Chant put to sleep. A little background on Chant: she was one of my favorite dogs. Here's the other weird thing. Both she and Trisky were 13. Chant's birthday was the day before mine, and Trisky's birthday was the day before Michelle's. We had always halfway joked that we would probably lose them at around the same time. Chant outlived Trisky by four days. It was such a sad way to break up the day. Michelle looked exactly like I did on Monday: a total wreck. I took her by the arm and said "I have to show you something," then I led her back to the hall where we keep the records of deaths and euthanasias. I pointed out Trisky's highlighted name at the bottom of the page, and we both just busted out crying. It was very hard, the whole deal.
Then there was last night and this morning. Okay, so my crow Lohi'au, right? Otherwise known as Havoc, because no one wants to either spell or pronounce Lohi'au? And because havoc is what he causes, naturally. Well, he figured out how to work all the locks on his cage ages ago, so since aroudn summertime I've resorted to just putting a bungee cord across the doors to keep him in. He's been trying to work them out for months. Last night he simply bit through the cord. Oh, he didn't get out or anything. Instead he chewed through the cord, dragged the entire works into his cage, and went for it. Around 1 AM, right before I was going to bed, I went to give him some food for the morning so he wouldn't scream at sunrise, and I found the chewed up cord. And only one of the metal hooks. I tore the cage apart looking for the other metal hook and couldn't find it. So consequently I spent most of the night trying to get to sleep, and when I managed to sleep, having dreams about finding him dead in the morning.
First thing this morning I took him down to work for an x ray. (And while waiting, met my lovely co-worker Scooter, an employee I'd never had the pleasure of working with, but she's so sweet, and a huge 30STM fan. She was even wearing the t shirt.) Anyway, so we put Havoc in a box and set him on the x ray table. Jane took the x ray.
The first in the break from bad news! No metal hook inside my crow! I have no idea where the damned thing got to--I can imagine and only hope that I threw it away with the newspapers last night while panicking--but it's not inside of my crow and that is a good thing.
( This is my crow's wee little bones! )
Precious.
And then while I was out, unbeknownst to me, my Da went to the ER, got my x rays (I guess he's allowed to do that because he's next of kin?) and took them to his doctor who took him in right away to look at them. Then that doctor told my Dad that there was nothing to worry about concerning my x rays (which I more or less knew, but it's still good to hear,) but that I still needed to follow up with an orthopedist because of the usual structural problems I still have (which I also already knew.) But anyway, that was a good thing!
( Look at that sexy leg bone! )
THEN!! Chrissie got a phone call telling her that Gavin--hers and Timmy's soon-to-be adopted son and my god)dess)son?--has his "interview" on Monday, and shortly after that they should be receiving their travel call. So it could very well be that I will have a new god(dess) son by next week and Chris and Tim will finally, FINALLY after all of these years, have their baby!
Now how awesome is that? Very.
And in the meantime, my little pack of wild dogs has been having some serious coping issues, and also we've been having some serious winter weather. I've got pictures (naturally) to document both of these things.
Weirdly enough, when Trisky got sick, the two boys started fighting more, having these weird little contests. (Of note: Haku randomly freaked out at my Mom and Dad's house the second Dr. Jenn put the injection in Trisky--I heard him from where I was. And since then, Haku can't sleep, and he keeps staring at the place where her bed used to be and crying. I think I've sold him short. He's kind of a retard but he may be deeper than I'd given him credit for.)
Anyway, since Trisky has been gone, I've been seeing more and more of ( this kind of thing from them: )
It starts out as play and then escalates into a real contest that I usually have to break up by taking their toys away. I think they forget that the alpha spot is not up for grabs.
Other than that and their obvious sense of loss, they are their usual dummy selves.
( OH NOEZ TEH FIRE ALARM! )
( And still handsome. )
And aside from that, the ice storms. ( Of course I have pictures! )
We're expecting another huge ice storm tonight, so locals and people traveling into this area, stay warm and be safe.
And that's me, updated.
ETA: The beginning of "Snoopy And The Red Baron" is just like the beginning of MCR's song "Mama." True story.
