Of Spring and rings

A few weeks ago I was afraid to sit down and study because both of Haku's seizures took place when I was doing exactly that. Now I'm afraid to write in my LJ because the second two too place while I was doing exactly that. But, he is in a different bed this time, so maybe it's okay? O_O

I would have been in China today. Oh well. A few months.

Today I took my last finals of my first trimester. I think I did pretty well, at least I hope. Admittedly the last twelve or so questions on the A&P one were hard as hell, but if I just got those twelve or so wrong I think I'll still do okay. The second one, Intro to OM, was kind of a breeze. :) I know I got at least an 85 but probably higher. I'll be happy if I got higher.

It was seventy five degrees today and I spent it all indoors at school. >_< There are no nice grassy places to hang out outside, and everyone smokes out there anyway. Ugh.

So in the four hours between classes I had lunch, got a free massage, played Crisis Core for two hours, and went over my notes for the second test.

Here's something nice someone said to me today. I like to keep track of these things because they really kind of make my day; they are so rare. I was on the massage table face down when the supervisor came in (they always do; it's a learning clinic,) and she said, "Oh, it's Jules! I recognize you by your beautiful hair." I went all squee-ish and grateful. It was pretty sweet.

Seriously guys, seventy five degrees. How sweet is that? And now in my first of two weeks off, it's going to be cold and rainy all the frigging week. Which is great for the plants and all, but I had really hoped to go out in the yard and get my ponds cleaned out and started, the gardens cleared, and the leaves blown.

LOL, "blown."

Saturday is Gran's memorial. I have so many pictures I want to bring.

Oh, and I must tell about the ring. Right, the ring. Gran has this beautiful family ring with about ten stones in it representing her children (my aunts and uncles) and her grandchildren. She got it in the 70's. Because of the weird birthday cluster thing, even her subsequent grandchildren and even her great grandchildren were mostly born in three specific months. Most of the stones on there represent people she didn't even know were going to come along.

Anyway, before Gran got sick, she said the ring was hurting her and she took it off. I wore it for a while, saying that I would gladly give it back when her finger felt better. In the meantime, she gave her other ring (a beautiful ruby,) to my other cousin Chrissie. We each wore them until the swelling went down somewhat in her fingers and then gave them back.

So, those rings are ours now.

There are three stones that don't match. One is my aunt's birthstone for August. Gran and my aunt ended on very bad terms, so that they were not only not speaking when she died, but this aunt of mine is making things difficult even now. The second is Jo-chan: she was born in June and is the only grandchild to do so! This was easily remedied. My Mom took the ring down to the jewelers and had them remove my mean aunt's birthstone, to replace it with a June one. (They couldn't do pearl so alexandrite was the next best thing.)

The third one that doesn't match is March. These are someone's kids who never kept in touch with anyone after the late seventies. I'm not sure even who they are. But maybe in the future someone will come along to make March meaningful to me in some way. Maybe it's a sign?

So with the ten (or is it eight? I don't have the ring back yet) stones, they show the following months: January (Grampa, and my one cousin's kid Mimi,) February (both my parents, my aunt Betsy and my godson,) March (??) May (Uncle Don and my cousin's kid Zack, ) June (Jo-chan,) October (me, my cousin's husband Timmy, strangely enough my brother who is not my grandmother's grandson; we were all born on Oct. 24th,) November, (My Gran, my cousin, and my cousin's kid Brando--and they were all born on Nov. 1st or 3rd,) and December (SB.)

I think that's everybody. Now, I just can't wait to wear it. It seems like it's going to mean so much to me. I'm just so eager to put it on my finger. It seems right. I hope I have it before Saturday.

I miss her every day, mostly when I think of the little things though. Like shopping at Target with her, or complimenting her on whatever cute dress she would be wearing during the day. Yesterday I was crying over her headbands that she always wore. This is just a whole lot harder than I thought it would be.

But, it's not a constant thing, either. Much of the time I just feel like my regular self, and I'm still happy. I guess it's a big difference between depression and mourning.

Well! I know these entries have been so focused on that one loss and very little else, but I just have to write things down; that's how I roll. It makes me feel better. And with two weeks of freedom coming up, who knows what silly things will be whizzing through my head? Hopefully mostly good things.

I swear I have nothing to do. No studying, no obligations at the moment, nothing. During the day there will be lots of cleaning (and I hope to get the dogs a bath,) some printing of pictures and junk like this. But at night, hey maybe I can just hang out and play video games. Right? And Kung Fu on Monday and Wednesday of course.

Oh! Must remind myself: ask Sifu about renting the kwon space for an hour for Hula classes. I haven't danced with my Hula sisters in months. Months. AND. Two days after my next trimester starts, so does my teaching job.

Uhh, if anyone shows up, that is. Let's hope. ^_^;;

That is my babble for today.

ETA: I want to add that I've been going through some of my archives and unlocking some old work-related posts. I used to lock them for obvious reasons (I was frustrated, I hated it there, I was talking about some of the crappy things that crappy people were doing to me,) but now it's almost a year later and I obviously don't care who reads them. :)

So some of the old posts that were locked are now unlocked.

I'm really just writing that to remind myself, actually.

ETA 2, the sequel! Superfun geeky conversation making my day.

Also superfun geeky comments making my day.

I could do that all night, I swear. :)

Of Spring and rings

A few weeks ago I was afraid to sit down and study because both of Haku's seizures took place when I was doing exactly that. Now I'm afraid to write in my LJ because the second two too place while I was doing exactly that. But, he is in a different bed this time, so maybe it's okay? O_O

I would have been in China today. Oh well. A few months.

Today I took my last finals of my first trimester. I think I did pretty well, at least I hope. Admittedly the last twelve or so questions on the A&P one were hard as hell, but if I just got those twelve or so wrong I think I'll still do okay. The second one, Intro to OM, was kind of a breeze. :) I know I got at least an 85 but probably higher. I'll be happy if I got higher.

It was seventy five degrees today and I spent it all indoors at school. >_< There are no nice grassy places to hang out outside, and everyone smokes out there anyway. Ugh.

So in the four hours between classes I had lunch, got a free massage, played Crisis Core for two hours, and went over my notes for the second test.

Here's something nice someone said to me today. I like to keep track of these things because they really kind of make my day; they are so rare. I was on the massage table face down when the supervisor came in (they always do; it's a learning clinic,) and she said, "Oh, it's Jules! I recognize you by your beautiful hair." I went all squee-ish and grateful. It was pretty sweet.

Seriously guys, seventy five degrees. How sweet is that? And now in my first of two weeks off, it's going to be cold and rainy all the frigging week. Which is great for the plants and all, but I had really hoped to go out in the yard and get my ponds cleaned out and started, the gardens cleared, and the leaves blown.

LOL, "blown."

Saturday is Gran's memorial. I have so many pictures I want to bring.

Oh, and I must tell about the ring. Right, the ring. Gran has this beautiful family ring with about ten stones in it representing her children (my aunts and uncles) and her grandchildren. She got it in the 70's. Because of the weird birthday cluster thing, even her subsequent grandchildren and even her great grandchildren were mostly born in three specific months. Most of the stones on there represent people she didn't even know were going to come along.

Anyway, before Gran got sick, she said the ring was hurting her and she took it off. I wore it for a while, saying that I would gladly give it back when her finger felt better. In the meantime, she gave her other ring (a beautiful ruby,) to my other cousin Chrissie. We each wore them until the swelling went down somewhat in her fingers and then gave them back.

So, those rings are ours now.

There are three stones that don't match. One is my aunt's birthstone for August. Gran and my aunt ended on very bad terms, so that they were not only not speaking when she died, but this aunt of mine is making things difficult even now. The second is Jo-chan: she was born in June and is the only grandchild to do so! This was easily remedied. My Mom took the ring down to the jewelers and had them remove my mean aunt's birthstone, to replace it with a June one. (They couldn't do pearl so alexandrite was the next best thing.)

The third one that doesn't match is March. These are someone's kids who never kept in touch with anyone after the late seventies. I'm not sure even who they are. But maybe in the future someone will come along to make March meaningful to me in some way. Maybe it's a sign?

So with the ten (or is it eight? I don't have the ring back yet) stones, they show the following months: January (Grampa, and my one cousin's kid Mimi,) February (both my parents, my aunt Betsy and my godson,) March (??) May (Uncle Don and my cousin's kid Zack, ) June (Jo-chan,) October (me, my cousin's husband Timmy, strangely enough my brother who is not my grandmother's grandson; we were all born on Oct. 24th,) November, (My Gran, my cousin, and my cousin's kid Brando--and they were all born on Nov. 1st or 3rd,) and December (SB.)

I think that's everybody. Now, I just can't wait to wear it. It seems like it's going to mean so much to me. I'm just so eager to put it on my finger. It seems right. I hope I have it before Saturday.

I miss her every day, mostly when I think of the little things though. Like shopping at Target with her, or complimenting her on whatever cute dress she would be wearing during the day. Yesterday I was crying over her headbands that she always wore. This is just a whole lot harder than I thought it would be.

But, it's not a constant thing, either. Much of the time I just feel like my regular self, and I'm still happy. I guess it's a big difference between depression and mourning.

Well! I know these entries have been so focused on that one loss and very little else, but I just have to write things down; that's how I roll. It makes me feel better. And with two weeks of freedom coming up, who knows what silly things will be whizzing through my head? Hopefully mostly good things.

I swear I have nothing to do. No studying, no obligations at the moment, nothing. During the day there will be lots of cleaning (and I hope to get the dogs a bath,) some printing of pictures and junk like this. But at night, hey maybe I can just hang out and play video games. Right? And Kung Fu on Monday and Wednesday of course.

Oh! Must remind myself: ask Sifu about renting the kwon space for an hour for Hula classes. I haven't danced with my Hula sisters in months. Months. AND. Two days after my next trimester starts, so does my teaching job.

Uhh, if anyone shows up, that is. Let's hope. ^_^;;

That is my babble for today.

ETA: I want to add that I've been going through some of my archives and unlocking some old work-related posts. I used to lock them for obvious reasons (I was frustrated, I hated it there, I was talking about some of the crappy things that crappy people were doing to me,) but now it's almost a year later and I obviously don't care who reads them. :)

So some of the old posts that were locked are now unlocked.

I'm really just writing that to remind myself, actually.

ETA 2, the sequel! Superfun geeky conversation making my day.

Also superfun geeky comments making my day.

I could do that all night, I swear. :)