Continuing down the vortex of suck

As I'd mentioned, I didn't think that Haku seemed right after this last surgery. He was holding his leg funny, didn't want to walk, just generally seemed "off" to me in a way I couldn't put my finger on. But I was determined that this one would work out. (And if you want to spoil the, LOL, epic reveal, just take a look at the tag.) I thought, "Well, this is in my control. He just isn't allowed to move his leg, that's all. He's never to be left alone, and I'll make sure this is all fine. The only thing I can't control would be if he were to, I don't know, have a seizure and re-injure his leg. But how unlikely is that? He hasn't had on since May or something."

Aaaaaand there we are at 4 AM exactly, Haku having an epic seizure, flipping himself over onto his injured leg like he always does. Except this time he gets his leg stuck underneath him during the seizure so it's all crammed up while he's trying to kick.

His leg was already bleeding after the seizure, and really swollen.

So I took him down to the vets today where they decided to keep him. This is mostly because he clusters when he seizures. It's never just one with him. It's like, three in a day. So they put him on a bed in a cage, just in case he has more. And they're trying some new, single-use drug specifically for cluster seizures.

They can't yet tell if the ligament is re-torn because the swelling is so bad it's actually acting as a stabilizer. If it is, then it will be his third surgery in as many weeks.

So they decided to try the K-laser to get the swelling down so they could get a better feel of the joint. The K-laser is really amazing. I was skeptical, as I am of all things. And it's funny that I am, because holistic and alternative medicine is, hello, my field. As much as I despise allopathic medicine on the whole, I'm just as brainwashed by it as the next person. You get results, fast. Usually the good results come with a whole army of even worse results, but we're conditioned to this kind of thinking, you know? Anyway. So I was a little skeptical when I sat there with Haku and watched my favorite vet take out this tiny laser thing and start shining it on his leg. I was like, "Am I paying hundreds of dollars for a little red flashlight?" I asked a lot of questions about the mechanism, physiological changes, and contraindications. I sometimes like to hear contraindications because they give you insight on how it works.

Well, after the first round my favorite vet said, "I'll use it on some acupuncture points, if you want." Because she just got licensed for pet acupuncture and let me tell you, she is an amazing vet, allopathically and naturopathically. I always say she's like Dr. House except without the attitude and addiction – she thinks around the corner. So, she started doing acupuncture points with the laser, and all of a sudden, the suture on Haku's leg just totally started leaking lymphatic fluid. It was such a huge, obvious reveal. The swelling just started to leak out.

They're a really good team there; I really love the two vets who take care of him. I spoke at length to Haku's surgeon (who saw me at once today, free of charge,) and she had all these different ideas of what I could do just about his leg. I thanked her profusely and told her that I wished that my nine years in the veterinary field had been in their service instead of where I had worked. Then she offered me a job, LOL.

So in the end, they decided to keep Haku for three days, to keep repeating the laser treatment a few times a day, and to watch for seizures. The decision to leave him for three days wasn't even that hard. Last night was chaos; I don't have the resources to handle his seizures, his leg, the post-ictal part, and the possibility of clusters by myself. I could barely get my stupid clothes on to take him outside; I literally had to get my pants on one-handed while the other one prevented him from jumping up and trying (and failing) to run around. That would have ended in a broken leg. I'm just one person.

So, that's where Haku is now and I think they're going to do a good job taking care of him. This morning I was frantic, thinking, How is this going to work? How can he be okay? But they really have this under control over there. Everyone was very cheerful and positive.

I just don't know where the money is going to come from. My college loans I'm pretty sure (at least half of them) I have to start paying next month. Well, I'll also have another job once I pass the boards, too, so. There's that as well. And rumors I'm hearing are that the pay is really good around here.

It's just, not having that job now, that makes me panic. I mean, I like the job I have now, it's really nice. It's just not enough.

So that's the story of today.

That's all right, though. Once I get my book published and make a million billion dollars then all my problems will disappear. ;D

Oh, but then of course, to add to the general suckiness of today, Pete Postlethwaite died today, too. That really bummed me out. He was Kobayashi, man. :(

Continuing down the vortex of suck

As I'd mentioned, I didn't think that Haku seemed right after this last surgery. He was holding his leg funny, didn't want to walk, just generally seemed "off" to me in a way I couldn't put my finger on. But I was determined that this one would work out. (And if you want to spoil the, LOL, epic reveal, just take a look at the tag.) I thought, "Well, this is in my control. He just isn't allowed to move his leg, that's all. He's never to be left alone, and I'll make sure this is all fine. The only thing I can't control would be if he were to, I don't know, have a seizure and re-injure his leg. But how unlikely is that? He hasn't had on since May or something."

Aaaaaand there we are at 4 AM exactly, Haku having an epic seizure, flipping himself over onto his injured leg like he always does. Except this time he gets his leg stuck underneath him during the seizure so it's all crammed up while he's trying to kick.

His leg was already bleeding after the seizure, and really swollen.

So I took him down to the vets today where they decided to keep him. This is mostly because he clusters when he seizures. It's never just one with him. It's like, three in a day. So they put him on a bed in a cage, just in case he has more. And they're trying some new, single-use drug specifically for cluster seizures.

They can't yet tell if the ligament is re-torn because the swelling is so bad it's actually acting as a stabilizer. If it is, then it will be his third surgery in as many weeks.

So they decided to try the K-laser to get the swelling down so they could get a better feel of the joint. The K-laser is really amazing. I was skeptical, as I am of all things. And it's funny that I am, because holistic and alternative medicine is, hello, my field. As much as I despise allopathic medicine on the whole, I'm just as brainwashed by it as the next person. You get results, fast. Usually the good results come with a whole army of even worse results, but we're conditioned to this kind of thinking, you know? Anyway. So I was a little skeptical when I sat there with Haku and watched my favorite vet take out this tiny laser thing and start shining it on his leg. I was like, "Am I paying hundreds of dollars for a little red flashlight?" I asked a lot of questions about the mechanism, physiological changes, and contraindications. I sometimes like to hear contraindications because they give you insight on how it works.

Well, after the first round my favorite vet said, "I'll use it on some acupuncture points, if you want." Because she just got licensed for pet acupuncture and let me tell you, she is an amazing vet, allopathically and naturopathically. I always say she's like Dr. House except without the attitude and addiction – she thinks around the corner. So, she started doing acupuncture points with the laser, and all of a sudden, the suture on Haku's leg just totally started leaking lymphatic fluid. It was such a huge, obvious reveal. The swelling just started to leak out.

They're a really good team there; I really love the two vets who take care of him. I spoke at length to Haku's surgeon (who saw me at once today, free of charge,) and she had all these different ideas of what I could do just about his leg. I thanked her profusely and told her that I wished that my nine years in the veterinary field had been in their service instead of where I had worked. Then she offered me a job, LOL.

So in the end, they decided to keep Haku for three days, to keep repeating the laser treatment a few times a day, and to watch for seizures. The decision to leave him for three days wasn't even that hard. Last night was chaos; I don't have the resources to handle his seizures, his leg, the post-ictal part, and the possibility of clusters by myself. I could barely get my stupid clothes on to take him outside; I literally had to get my pants on one-handed while the other one prevented him from jumping up and trying (and failing) to run around. That would have ended in a broken leg. I'm just one person.

So, that's where Haku is now and I think they're going to do a good job taking care of him. This morning I was frantic, thinking, How is this going to work? How can he be okay? But they really have this under control over there. Everyone was very cheerful and positive.

I just don't know where the money is going to come from. My college loans I'm pretty sure (at least half of them) I have to start paying next month. Well, I'll also have another job once I pass the boards, too, so. There's that as well. And rumors I'm hearing are that the pay is really good around here.

It's just, not having that job now, that makes me panic. I mean, I like the job I have now, it's really nice. It's just not enough.

So that's the story of today.

That's all right, though. Once I get my book published and make a million billion dollars then all my problems will disappear. ;D

Oh, but then of course, to add to the general suckiness of today, Pete Postlethwaite died today, too. That really bummed me out. He was Kobayashi, man. :(

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Just sitting here, had a funny feeling about Haku and called the clinic. He just had another seizure, they were about to call me. So, we're trying to think of some different options for controlling the clusters. He didn't hurt his leg this time.

But really I just keep track of the clusters in this LJ, hence the post.

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Just sitting here, had a funny feeling about Haku and called the clinic. He just had another seizure, they were about to call me. So, we're trying to think of some different options for controlling the clusters. He didn't hurt his leg this time.

But really I just keep track of the clusters in this LJ, hence the post.