BAD head movies. And some query stuff.
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la_belle_laideMy dream last night was SO BAD.
It starts when this guy breaks into my Mom's house while I'm there alone. He somehow gets in through the window and he's coming to kill everyone. So I grab the fireplace poker thing and just start beating him with it. Blood is flying everywhere. Then I somehow lose the poker, but I keep finding different things to beat him with. He keeps trying to get up, but I'm not even looking at him, just trying to kill him because I know he's come in to do harm.
Eventually I realize that the bad guy is gone – he escaped out the back door somehow. I look down to find Haku in his place, all bloody. So I start freaking out realizing that I did this, and that if I had looked sooner, I would have realized that it wasn't the bad guy I was hurting, but my dog.
It just got worse from there and was so awful I can't even write about it.
After that I had a dream about the guy I met in school who I still see sometimes. In the dream, we're going on a date to Greenport (irl we decided on Montauk, when the weather gets better.) It's high summer and we get to Greenport and there's some kind of party on the beach. Bonfires and such, as it's night time.
My cousin joins us. (Note: My cousin and I lived together for a long time and were very close. We were always together and were, unfortunately, often judged as "The Pretty One" and "The Smart One." She was [is] actually gorgeous, which, sadly, precluded her from being thought "smart." Which was ridiculous, because she was totally smart – but people never looked past her beauty, which always ended up to her detriment. Anyway, she was very popular, while I was plain and, you know, sort of anti social.) Anyway, so she shows up, and she starts dating the guy I'm seeing. Strangely, I don't mind too much when this starts happening, thinking, "Well as long as they're happy." It didn't matter also because it turned out that I was dating the guy who played the psycho bad guy on Criminal Minds the other night.
The second dream was just uncomfortable and awkward, but the first one was so terrible that I had to wake myself up from it. Truly, that head movie made my eyes rain.
I think the thing with Haku had to do with the fact that he was in therapy again yesterday. He's not going for a whole 'nother round of it (I am out of money and that's the dang truth,) but I had one left over from the last surgery. So I figured, let me get my money's worth, and see what they think of his progress since the surgery.
The leg that recently had the surgery is doing fine, fortunately. However, the other leg—the one that had surgery last year—has major arthritis, and that is really what's giving him a problem. Also, his shoulder is tricky now because he's been using his front legs to carry all his weight, going on a year now. GDI!
Anyway, back to the dream: yesterday Haku was really unhappy with the therapy; he just kept fussing and whining and crying the whole time. When it was done I told him, "Okay, doggie torture is over, I'm sorry I did this to you!" So maybe that phrase stuck in my head.
The other dream, I have no idea.
So as I mentioned in my last post, I entered that promotion to get my query letter critiqued again. It'll be nice, if I get it, because the agent in question was one of the ones who rejected the query! It'll be super awesome to get some feedback and find out why. Until I do, I'm holding off on querying. Maybe there's something really wrong with the letter that I'm not seeing, and that other people are missing? Maybe it's a "feeling" thing that's causing it to be rejected out of hand, and having someone truly look it over will pinpoint the problem. It's really weird, because last year I had all sorts of good feedback--good rejections, if you get me, helpful ones—but in the last year, I've just gone back to getting form rejections. And I can't help but wonder why that is.
So maybe I'll get an answer! And that will be a tremendous help to me, you know? Cross your fingers for me, guys! :)
It starts when this guy breaks into my Mom's house while I'm there alone. He somehow gets in through the window and he's coming to kill everyone. So I grab the fireplace poker thing and just start beating him with it. Blood is flying everywhere. Then I somehow lose the poker, but I keep finding different things to beat him with. He keeps trying to get up, but I'm not even looking at him, just trying to kill him because I know he's come in to do harm.
Eventually I realize that the bad guy is gone – he escaped out the back door somehow. I look down to find Haku in his place, all bloody. So I start freaking out realizing that I did this, and that if I had looked sooner, I would have realized that it wasn't the bad guy I was hurting, but my dog.
It just got worse from there and was so awful I can't even write about it.
After that I had a dream about the guy I met in school who I still see sometimes. In the dream, we're going on a date to Greenport (irl we decided on Montauk, when the weather gets better.) It's high summer and we get to Greenport and there's some kind of party on the beach. Bonfires and such, as it's night time.
My cousin joins us. (Note: My cousin and I lived together for a long time and were very close. We were always together and were, unfortunately, often judged as "The Pretty One" and "The Smart One." She was [is] actually gorgeous, which, sadly, precluded her from being thought "smart." Which was ridiculous, because she was totally smart – but people never looked past her beauty, which always ended up to her detriment. Anyway, she was very popular, while I was plain and, you know, sort of anti social.) Anyway, so she shows up, and she starts dating the guy I'm seeing. Strangely, I don't mind too much when this starts happening, thinking, "Well as long as they're happy." It didn't matter also because it turned out that I was dating the guy who played the psycho bad guy on Criminal Minds the other night.
The second dream was just uncomfortable and awkward, but the first one was so terrible that I had to wake myself up from it. Truly, that head movie made my eyes rain.
I think the thing with Haku had to do with the fact that he was in therapy again yesterday. He's not going for a whole 'nother round of it (I am out of money and that's the dang truth,) but I had one left over from the last surgery. So I figured, let me get my money's worth, and see what they think of his progress since the surgery.
The leg that recently had the surgery is doing fine, fortunately. However, the other leg—the one that had surgery last year—has major arthritis, and that is really what's giving him a problem. Also, his shoulder is tricky now because he's been using his front legs to carry all his weight, going on a year now. GDI!
Anyway, back to the dream: yesterday Haku was really unhappy with the therapy; he just kept fussing and whining and crying the whole time. When it was done I told him, "Okay, doggie torture is over, I'm sorry I did this to you!" So maybe that phrase stuck in my head.
The other dream, I have no idea.
So as I mentioned in my last post, I entered that promotion to get my query letter critiqued again. It'll be nice, if I get it, because the agent in question was one of the ones who rejected the query! It'll be super awesome to get some feedback and find out why. Until I do, I'm holding off on querying. Maybe there's something really wrong with the letter that I'm not seeing, and that other people are missing? Maybe it's a "feeling" thing that's causing it to be rejected out of hand, and having someone truly look it over will pinpoint the problem. It's really weird, because last year I had all sorts of good feedback--good rejections, if you get me, helpful ones—but in the last year, I've just gone back to getting form rejections. And I can't help but wonder why that is.
So maybe I'll get an answer! And that will be a tremendous help to me, you know? Cross your fingers for me, guys! :)
