Bibble babble

[la_belle_laide]

So I did mention, in that last post, that our clinic is under new management and I've been doing some desk work. Nothing major, just answering the phones, booking appointments, taking payments, that kind of thing. Basically the stuff I was doing before, only officially now and for more time. It's pretty straight forward stuff. I get to sit at the desk and wait for the phone to ring. I'm allowed to bring my laptop, so that I'm not just sitting there while the phone *doesn't* ring. And that's nice. I could load my first draft into google docs and do a lot of editing and stuff there, but then I'd have to copy and paste it all back into my Scrivener at home, and what if I make a bunch of small edits in different chapters? That just seems like a lot of work.

I guess I can call it a second draft now, in a way. I cut a chapter or two and did some minor line edits. I added a chapter here and there. But this second draft is more like a first draft than the first. It's clunky and crazy, with random notes to myself like “PUT SOME TENSION HERE FFS” and “DON'T FORGET THERE ARE MILLIONS OF DEAD PEOPLE, SO...” You know, it's just so frustrating because it took so much work to get that first novel of mine as sparkly as it is now, so much work and so much TIME. This new one seems a million miles away from that and I just want to kick it. At least when I wrote the first draft of the first one I was like, “This is genius!” But writing this one is constantly like, “OMG this sucks, you know how bad this is, there are notes everywhere and you just changed the main character's name for the fifth time, THIS IS TOO HARD, I CAN'T FIX IT.”

But I still go back to it every day, so.

Umm. What else did I used to write about in here? I forgot how much practice it took to write in LJ all the time.

The weather. It wants to be warm out. I can feel it really trying to be warm. Like, when you drive to work in the AM and you have the heat on, but then coming home, if the sun peeks out, you have to shut it off, and maybe even turn on the air a little, but only a little. And tons of rain, which beats the hell out of snow, thanks.

I want to have a garden this year. I've only done minor gardening before, like just flowers and the easy plants, berries and such. But this year I want to do a real, organic veggie garden. I don't know where to start. I mean, aside from Home Depot. Gardening seems pretty simple, but I know actual gardeners, and there are all these tricks about what to plant where, this goes next to that, this needs acidic soil, this needs more water than the other thing, and how do I keep the dogs from whizzing on it, etc. Also, how to keep ticks tf away from me because that's a huge issue for me.

I also want to build a little walkway to the pool. And, you know, actually open the pool.

I don't see how I'm going to do all of this, or ANY of this, in the two hours that Callum takes his naps. Although, with gardening, he could come outside with me. (But then there's that tick thing again. Unless you live on Long Island, or, IDK, maybe Connecticut, you can't possibly know just how bad the deer tick population is around here and how many people get Lyme and RMSF and those are two really awful things that you seriously do not want to have.)

Now I'm pissed off about ticks.

Someone tell me what to make for dinner tonight.

Comments

[labricoleuse.livejournal.com]

I dunno about dinner, but could you put scrivener on the laptop too and then have the novel on the cloud? I do that so i can edit at work, with my current thing on Dropbox synced to both.

[la-belle-laide.livejournal.com]

I should really get a cloud thing. Would I have to buy Scriv twice?

[spatterdash.livejournal.com]

You do have to buy it again for whatever other computer you have it on. I think though that if you have bought it already once, you get a discount on a second copy for another computer. I don't know because i have not yet used up the 30 days of free usage on the work computer d/l, since they aren't consecutive days. I only open it if i know i am doing a whole lot of nothing at work that day, which is rare for me.

[spatterdash.livejournal.com]

Also i wanted to say, i feel the same way about the draft i'm in right now. Or at least, sometimes i am all gung-ho about it and other times i'm like FUCK THIS IS TOO HARD I CAN'T FIGHT THE HYDRA.

Because yeah, i think about how much work i put into the DP (and how much work i DIDN'T put into the four other abandoned/partial novels i have in the proverbial drawer), and it is discouraging, because who has the time for that? But i know the ocean's just drops of water, and that it's hard to be a drop and conceive the ocean and all that "we're star-stuff!" shit, and novels are just the same.

So you know, keep plugging, and solidarity from over here.

[misstottenham.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad that your desk work gives you time to do stuff on the computer.

I bet your little guy is like a wind up toy that's been set off but isn't winding down any time soon LOL xx