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Pendragon's tail got infected while he was boarding. It's unbelievable that I'm here again. It's almost a year, isn't it? Christ! I mentioned in my post Thursday (or Friday?) that his tail was all bloody and bruised and swollen when I picked him up; I figured he had banged it up but good and hence the swelling. But tonight I was cleaning it and the scales just started coming off in my hand, and with it such a smell that it was unbelievable. It's totally a smell of infection. Pendragon never gets a break, and I swear neither do I. >_< It's the one thing I really hate about going away on vacation. My aim was to keep this entry all mellow and whatnot but I find myself getting pissed. Can I not have one year with my pets being totally healthy and not having these dramas all the time?

And I wish I knew what route I was going to take. Obviously I have to do something, but I don't want to have a repeat of last year with the amputation and stuff. I have to put him on antibiotics again, but that's messing with my mind because of that one point of uric acid in his blood panel.

Christ!

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What's the significance of the uric acid? Bladder problem for the poor lizard?

It's a kidney value, one that has always been really low in him. I don't know what raised it to that one point above range, but I will, of course, obsess over it for a while until I have spent a sufficient amount of time and guilt trying to figure it out, and then finally realize that he is still (knock on wood) acting like the same lizard that he always is, and then I'll get mellow. Then I'll remind myself that lizards are supposed to act normal even if they're not feeling normal because it's part of their natural defense, and I'll panic again for a while. I'll try to find out if there's anything I can do to lower it, and if there is, I'll do it and then feel better about it, even though it's just one point. This will go on and off until his tail gets better and I stop over-focussing on the thing that I can see. Once in a while I'll remember that I've stopped over-focussing and wonder if I should focus on it again, out of this weird sort of guilt that I have, because somehow, obsession and guilt makes things better. After a few weeks of everything being normal, I'll put it out of my mind and go on with my life.

This is the process of my neurosis. Nosce te ipsum, and all of that. ;)