I'm so sorry - my best to you, your family, and especially your Gran. It's good to hear she gets to come home, though. Hospice workers are some of my personal heroes.

I think I know what you mean about "lasts." I, too, have difficulty negotiating the knowledge that something is coming to an end. Thus, I try to soften my lasts with some firsts. When my grandmother passed, I started my annual geranium-potting day (her favorite flower). Her last flowerbed/window boxes became my first.

Best thoughts...
Becki