Then he told me, "You just have to do whatever works."

What a great doctor! It's wonderful that he's willing to listen to the people in the room, and take what they say into consideration. You must have felt so hopeful!

And I understand what you mean about not laughing -- I feel that too, though for me it's more the fear that people will think I'm "faking" being sad if I laugh or smile when I'm supposed to be depressed.

But you should always laugh, you should always smile. They're the best gifts we can give each other. :)