I know what you mean about connections. I have had multiple relatives die just before a holiday I was looking forward to. Now I force myself not to look forward to holidays and just enjoy them when they arrive.

I remember when your dad died and all the stuff you posted about him being a wonderful man. Keep the good memories, I'm sure he'll make things ok for you. After all, he brought Callum to you I'm sure. Not just anyone could have been his mum cos he's special.

xxxxx